I gotta let my feet off the ground, the time is now! i thought lupus was a restrictor, something that would prevent me from having my ultimate dream, a big house that i myself built, a nice property, dogs, cats, and most of all, a few horses, hopefully retired or permanently scarred ones, that could live the rest of their lives in luxury in my presence. But NO!!! Lupus is going to make all these simple hopes more worthwhile.
My main thing is, lupus cannot restrict me. I will not let it hold me back. If i do, than that is like giving up on my entire life, letting something invisinle rule me because of my fear of failing, or being hurt. I want to have an active, social life with family and friends. Lupus cannot take my life away from me without me allowing it. i never really in the past HAVE ACTUALLY allowed it to, but the thoughts of surrendering have become all too familiar to me. That is why i am determined, now more than ever, to get a good career, earn enough money to build my dream house, and hopefully someday have a nice, cozy tiny barn that can hold a few, homey, old timer horses. (and maybe some chickens......for eggs) My dreams are becoming more and more closer, when i finish high school i hope i can maybe take a year off of school to travel wherever i can. attending college is a priority, but i would like to taste freedom, gain my surroundings with lupus, before i go back into "hitting the books" as they say. So if you have something you think that will hold you back, don't let it get to you! it will only make your life accomplishments that much more special because you had to earn those accomplishments while fighting something that usual would restrain!!!!!!! More to come........
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