Update.........

OK,so you know how i told you guys a few days ago or something similiar to that calculation (my brain is fried tonight, can't think straight) that I had staff in my left middle finger? Well, i'm proud (maybe not proud but certainly grateful) to say  that it is healing nicely. i think the actual bacteria has left and in its place is some damaged skin and frazzled nerves (from me and my mother).
maybe now i can increase my celcept (immune suppressant) but unfortunately my steriod dosing will NOT be lowered quite yet because my blood work showed i was in a flare-up. A flare-up? I feel perfectly normal, i have even been going to the barn a few times a week now, and my energy is normal and i don't have any weird feelings beside the constant hunger that steriods cause. So what is flaring up?
I'm finding surviving this easier than I had once imaged. The dreaded words that had flown from the Dr's mouth many months ago, "This disease does not have a cure" don't seem so dreaded. but maybe thats because my mind hasn't fully operated around the idea of being stricken with this disease forever, though many people with lupus have normal lives...why can't i?
someone suggested to me that i have a publisher look at my work, a fasinating idea indeed! i never thought that my possible first published piece would be blogging, i always imaged myself publishing a horse novel, with a catchy title that i will not say (for ownership and future protection reasons). but the idea that i could have a book of my own fasinates me! makes me wonder, is this the start of something new, great and exciting? am i destined for bigger and better things at an early age already? it excites me, this healing and rehabilatating. Because so many things in my life are constantly changing, for better and for worse, that this one ray of hope might just get me through it all.
With hope, love and the future bright in my eyes, i wish u all who read this to having a forever happy day tomorrow and the next, for sunshine to shine on your face and for the breeze to ruffle your hair and surround you with scents of spring. from the overjoyed blogger, still more to come.........