Well this life majorly sucks (pardon my language).
Sure, my medical life is finally getting under control, but now my friend drama and the drama ( i guess) I've created at the stables has reached a boiling point, a simple warning has sent me running from the stable manager/ friend/ instructor/ sorta sister.
I don't even remember doing anything wrong and yet, I did. How frustrating is that!!??!?!? I mean, sure, be mad at me, explain to me, but don't leave me hanging with only a few strands.
The manager (name remains annoymous) says i did something totally rude and didn't listen but from that night I do not remember. Maybe I did but I was so flushed with adrenaline at the situation I forgot it. I know I got in trouble there with her a lot, simple things and major things. She said this was my first and last warning and that next time I could count on not being there for like a week. OK....mind telling me?!?!
Plus, even though my medical status is improving, it does not mean that it is totally better. I am stuck on 5 milligrams of steriods for awhile because my compliments are up!!! I can't believe this! And now this manager drama on top of everything else! How can I go back not knowing who she told about my behavior or who is judging me or who I can trust?!? Will my friends understand or will they turn on me!?! Will I eventually have to move from this stable just like I moved from my old school?!?!?
Anyways, yeah, life is not so good right now emotionally and physically (in my emotion category that is) my medical health still remains a mystery whether or not I will be able to get off steriods any time soon. Lupus and friendship have once again rendered me useless in this case.
So here's to a 2012..full of heartache and the never ending feeling of lonliness....and we are only into our 5th day. Hoorah! :/
Hey Kayla<3
ReplyDeletePlease tell me what happened at SMS??
I decided that i would check out your blog again. because i haven't for a while, and i was editing my own blog.
Message me on Facebook?? Love You!!
(p.s. i kinda don't want to say my name and see if you freak out or if you think that i'm a random creeper but i will, so you don't freak out haha)
Love you Kaylaaaa
~~ER <-- initials
pps. hang soon??
ER.....oohh yesss I think I do remember and know you...haha ok yes i will message you on Facebook.
ReplyDeleteOh you know, friend drama one oh one. I am surprised that the stress of this situation has not pulled me over the breaking point of my disease. I love these friends but sometimes I could just go hide under a rock for fifty years...haha yes i love my fans, my followers, my readers, everyone. Thank you for the comments and keep 'em coming! They're important to me!